Ayessa

Hello LJ

Sun, 03 Apr 2011 09:01:58 GMT

So now that I have my very own computer again, I am seeking out all of my old haunts. All the virtual places I used to spend my time. And so here I am.....Didya miss me??

Not sure who out there still uses LJ, Nelle I do believe you are still there :) Miss you girl!!

The life of Jen is as always a roller coaster ride, sometimes its going so fast I feel physically ill, other times Im stuck at the top looking down knowing its either going to be a thrilling drop and Im facing it with eyes wide open, or Im on the downward spiral and my eyes are closed ever so tightly.

I've lost touch with so much both online and off, I miss my friends, I miss having those people to talk to at any time. It reminds of that song "Where have all the flowers gone?" Maybe its time for me to get some things back on track, to find the bits of me that have been missing.

Just a quick life update....
Skyler 14 and such a handsome young man,
Kaiya 11 going on 30 she has the biggest heart and is my best friend
Hayley my Diva just as always, I love her and she truly is my mini me, oh dear lord help me.

Love Life - Travis and I are going on three years now...well that when we started talking again, and somewhere along the way we did take that next step. I am his and he is mine, we have a rough road ahead of us but we are determined to see this through. No matter how hard it gets!!!

Work - 10 years at Walmart now and I transferred to a new role as a Business Analyst, I am so very happy there and it was such a good move for me.

Hoping that anyone who reads this is well and happy :)

Good Times

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 02:24:52 GMT

There is something terribly wrong when my 8 year old is giggling like mad followed by a sly grin as she says "Good Times Good Times" I know she was up to something but the what is what scares me. ;)

I have found my song!!

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 05:32:53 GMT

Lyrics to Thinking Out Loud: Lesley Roy

I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie
I've been running away
For so long
I try to put on a face
And cover my heart
But I'm needing it now
So bad

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud
Thinking out loud

No, no I cant explain
What's happened to me
I feel like I'm right
And wrong
Inside everything's upside down
Everything's spinning around
And it's freaking me out

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud

If only for a day
I could be free
I bet you'd feel the same
If you were me
I'm gonna spit it out
Just let go.
I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie
I've been running away
For so long

I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud
I'm thinking out loud
Thinking out loud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what Ill say
I'm just thinking out loud

Remember Me??

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 04:05:59 GMT

I figured since I snuck onto lj to read a post of a dear friend I would take a moment to update it. I've been spending alot of time writing recently, and not on the computer. I've been writing letters to a dear friend and by the time the letters are finished I can't be bothered to post anything here. Im sure that makes no sense at all, but when did I ever claim to make sense.

Life has been crazy and busy as ever, My kids are growing up, and doing more things.

Skyler joined football this year and has been doing pretty well at it. He's Center defense I believe, which means he has to tackle other guys and keep them away from the quarterback. He had his first football game last Thursday and was put in during the second half. Its weird how you become so involved into the game when your kiddo is out there playing. The other boys seemed to tower over Skyler, but he simply did as instucted and held them back and didnt get toppled over in the process.

Kaiya has a boyfriend, and he is just cute as can be. I have a pic of them together when they were 7ish and now they are 9. I will have to watch all the serious talk they are having though, 9 and already saying they are going to get married. His parents are very nice and we have gotten to know each other since their older son is a year older than Skyler and plays football too. Kaiya and Luke have their first playdate tomorrow after school. He is going to come over after school so they can play. Luke is such a well mannered lil boy, so I know I have no worries. Last week Kaiya stayed with him and his folks at the game cause Skyler wanted to get home. Anyways when they pulled up Kaiya got out then Luke did and walked her to the porch. It was so sweet... Hopefully he never looses that as he grows older.

Now for Hayley, she is still my little diva. Very sassy and well a bit of a brat. I know I will have my hands full with her when she gets older, I just hope I can handle it.

Work is good and busy, we have a full team now of 32 associates. Lots of new faces, and some great talent. I find that I have been wearing multiple hats recently as our development team is short of BA's. We just promoted a new asst. ops manager which brings our total to 3 asst ops, an Ops (me) a supervisor and a manager. The last few months have been challenging for me as my responsibilites continue to increase. I do enjoy my job though and love the challenge.

I know a few of you are probably wondering about my so called love life, well that is currently on hold. I gave P. another chance, but he is back to his old habits and well I cant be bothered with it. I did kinda sorta start seeing someone else, but that relationship was doomed for the start so no matter how much he or I cared about each other it just wasnt meant to go to that next level. He now lives in Texas which makes it easier to deal with and will allow me to move on. Then there is the person that Im writing too, whom I've known since I was 13. Things are a bit complicated there.... I am just taking it all one day at a time and if Im meant to be settled down with someone it will happen when its supposed to. For right now Im happy being single, and really think its the best thing for me at the moment.

I've made some new friends recently who I know will be life long friends and renewed some other friendships that became well a bit stale. My friends have been whats kept me going recently and I love them for it. I love all their diversity and for getting me, and not making me try to fit some mold of who they think I should be.

All in all Jen is doing good at the moment and content with where things are.

This is tooo funny

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 03:11:26 GMT